Re: Bringing "sitting meditation" into the rest of your life.
Posted by sorrisi on 05/29/2011 05:02:53
In reply to Re: Bringing "sitting meditation" into the rest of your life. posted by Eddie on 05/27/2011 14:09:45
Hi Eddie,
I think you are right that Pauline and I share some personality traits.
I also identified with the passage you quoted at the time that I read
it in Coach's post: ”Being disappointed with yourself is an old habit
with you, my friend. It is an unnecessary habit. Yet it is a
part of your habitual personality, and so you go on doing it, so far.
When you catch on to how it is with these personalities that we humans
all have, you will be able to let go of that. You'll be able to wake
up and say, "Hello. Here I am being disappointed with myself again,
that old bugaboo. Well, I'm awake now, and since I've come to
recognize that that's just my automatic personality stuff, I won't
take that so seriously any more now, will I?"
It is actually something that I'm becoming more aware of as well! I
find myself constantly judging myself (and being disappointed), and as I
become more mindful, more often than not I am simply mindful of the
times when I am not mindful (does that make sense?), as well as being
mindful of the times that I judge myself.
So the day after reading Coach's great lesson about bringing mindfulness
into my daily life, I found myself being more absent than I had been in
a very very long time. So on the one hand, I became aware of it, on the
other hand, I was really disappointed in myself. But right after that,
I sighed and moved on, being mindful that every moment is available to me.
Thank you so much, Eddie, for taking the time to find (and remember!)
lessons from Coach and bringing them into the present. I would have
never found that lesson from Coach if you hadn't brought it forward into
the present.
all my best,
Sorrisi