More on the group dynamic with “Tunneling”
Posted by Eddie on 08/26/2011 14:17:06
Classroom Talk:
Through the space I gained (coupled with the time that has now
elapsed) and through my reflection on JT’s Zen story I’ve ‘now’
recognized that even before I had hit the refresh button the other day
to post my response to his post there, where I had found Scot had
beaten me to the ‘plate’, ‘I had already been in a hurry in a way that
had nothing what so ever to do with Scot’. As I had said Wanda and the
kids were holding dinner for me, but that was not the whole story
about what was going on inside me there. Where I recognize now that
even that next day I was still in a rush of my own making by
my ‘thinking’ that I still needed to rush, because I was afraid JT was
then going to beat me back into class.
And there ‘is’ record of that being in play by my making a point of
saying in my post to Scot–“That is of course if when I do finally
refresh my Classroom Talk page here this morning (or likely this
afternoon as slow as it’s going for me here) that I have not found
that JT himself or someone else has not beat me to bat. {Smiling with
joy}” So now I’m not thinking so much that, that feeling I was having
there was really ‘joy’ at all, but rather more uneasy apprehension
i.e. anxiety. And in a strict “work sense” I was lying when I said
that.
Now as I have since went back and re-read my original post where I had
given that adapted quote from Ouspensky, and JT’s post addressing it,
I have now realized that I had indeed been feeling like I had been too
long winded there. And by rushing ‘myself’ there in trying to keep my
descriptions of the three lines of work ‘short and simple’ I can now
easily recognize that I actually failed to specifically address what
seemed to be the main concern that JT had, had there. I knew I had the
feeling at the time when I saw Scot’s posting there, that his very
presence there completely apart from any content he was sharing,
was ‘of’ a somewhat special ‘mindfulness’ importance for ‘me’
personally, on the spot so to speak; As in an alarm clock–as a
personal opportunity for me to wake-up. Though I did wake up ‘on one
level’ right there on the spot, there was still a deeper level that I
had need of becoming conscious of that I have now done, a bit late but
potentially beneficial in regard to the dynamic of “Group Tunneling”
so to speak.
So for continuity and clarity, but probably more so because I am so
anal and hate being ‘seen’ as spacey {smiles} I will endeavor to
rectify that oversight here now; Or I could say as JT has alluded to,
that it’s for keeping it simple. {I’m grinning a bit mischievously
because try as I may, I have a very hard time with that dynamic, or
even on a more selfish self-centered note, of even really caring as
much as I should about keeping it simple.} But to be even a ‘bit’
simpler here now; I ‘did’ JT and Scot and the group as a whole a
disservice in a couple of ways. One was in my misrepresentation of
myself in regards to the hurry I was in. Then second (and in two ways)
in regards to when I said that “all” of what JT was referring to there
pertained to the first line of work only; and then by giving my own
example that pertained to the first line of work only, rather than
giving an example from my own experience of the second line of work,
which actually was the only place that JT was actually having any real
challenge with.
Anyway the issue JT had was about the “group dynamic of tunneling”
that Ouspensky had mentioned…pertaining to the second line of work…as
Scot suggested (we) or rather JT and Mr. Ouspensky were not all that
far apart.
Now as good as you all are at perceiving and filling in the gaps of
what I am really trying to express, I’m hearing Coach gently
whispering in my ear right here now saying: “work on being clearer”.
So here goes.
Through the dynamic of seeing our self through listening and
conversing with each other here in classroom talk we can become
mirrors to each other in many ways (((that is unique to this type of
group setting, from a three or more people perspective))) which is at
very least rarely available in life if ever at all. This is one clear
example of the “Group Dynamic of Tunneling”. There are numerous others
all of which in turn can potentially have a direct effect on me in
regards to my personal first line work as well–a number of which JT
made reference to himself in his earlier post that I failed to
acknowledge at the time.
In short there is a level and dimension of quality and depth that we
can reach through the function of a group dynamic that could never be
reached by working on ones self alone, or even one on one with another
practitioner for that matter. The work we do on the second line of
work trains us, as in helps us to potentially be able to wake-up,
hopefully quicker and more often in our efforts on the first line of
work out in the world. Also the inner play (dynamic) of “more than
two” people operating “together” (((opens))) me individually ‘in a
way’ and ‘creates in me’ an inner working dynamic that can “in no
other way be created” i.e. the arrangement and rearrangement of
psychological structures and the establishment of various multilevel
connections with in ‘me’. And just as a bones: a group together can do
work on a level that might potentially reach into and have an affect
on the world as a whole that might increase the chances of individuals
to be receiving help in ways no individual could ever accomplish alone
or even find on their own. This aspect pertains to all three lines of
work at the same time, and if I’m remembering right JT made reference
to an example of this type or level of work the other day as well.
All my best to you all;
Eddie