Re: Two centers
Posted by Scot on 09/19/2011 15:52:17
In reply to Two centers posted by john the younger on 09/19/2011 11:39:06
Hey JTY,
Thanks very much for checking in today! I'm glad to hear that
regardless of posting, that you are with us in spirit. Somehow, I've
felt the strength of your presence here in Classroom Talk lately, and
I'm very grateful for it.
I do identify with how you describe the experience with the processes
of seeing, hearing, and writing as ways to actualize authentic
understandings of 'conditioning'. Writing in particular is helpful not
only as a catharsis for me, but as a good 'mirror' for me to keep it
rea. Your suggestion to keep a daily journal is excellent and personal
journals can function as indispensable sources to track and trace the
reflections of our everyday reality.
John used to say that, (loose paraphrase) "Feelings always present
themselves and eventually come out." And I recall that he would also
suggest that we "listen to the music" in each other's posts at
Classroom Talk in order to gain more accurate insights about the
Personality/Essence that lives within the words. By "listen to the
music", I think that I understood John to mean that just like the
experience of making and hearing music, written expressions exhibit
harmony, melody, cadences, rhythms, tones and shades and can be
revelatory of authentic feelings and that the authenticity of the
intent within the words is right here and accessible on the written
page when authentic 'listening' is applied. And of course, coming to
the application of the authentic listening part of it all is the real
challenge!
Sometimes I wonder how I get through the day after all the losses that
I've experienced during the last 18 months or so. Perhaps it's a bit of
that societal "conditioning" to "stuff it and tough it out" (especially
men) regardless of the circumstances. That "stuffing" of feelings is
very physically, psychologically and spiritually damaging, yet the
conditioning is so powerful that it often overrides any sensible
thoughts or actions that offer us alternatives to healthful living.
Still, just as you've clearly expressed today, and regardless of the
suppression of feelings, something will trigger my grief and the tears
readily flow. It's very strange because the trigger can often be
something that seems totally unrelated to the direct memory that is
setting off the avalanche of feelings. And as John observed and offered
for our consideration, those feelings do inevitably find outward
expression on the surface of our being. We are here for you my brother!
Much Love,
Scot