Classroom Talk
Fall 2001 Archive
What about ME!?!?!?!?!?!? Posted by Bruce on October 24, 2001 at 10:06:07:
It's not-so-funny how I tend to re-enact my family drama whenever I
enter a group situation. I'm waking up to the glowing Scoreboard (a
Scoreboard newly designed with laser lights, dolby sound systems, and
Tibetan Gongs)on the feild of my experience here on this playground and
right now that Scoreboard is a Kaleidoscope of personality reactions.
These reactions are responses to the John-Deirdre drama. This is so
reminiscent of my family of origin where my parents with their anger-
lust-unhappy love story drama stole the whole show and empowered them
to reamin the centers of attention throughout my childhood. Part of my
Trevi Fountain post was from Essence and part from ego and was driven
to quell conflict between the "Real stars of the show." In part, my
whole childhood was one of being a living effort to take away Dad's
anger and Mom's sadness one day or Dad's Shame and Mom's anger the
next. Poohy! Poohy! No mas!
I'm resentful, John, that you have not respended to my post about Shame
and Spiritual Perfectionism which is a sincere plea for coaching and
compassion; instead, just like mommy and daddy used to do, you choose
to play out your drama with Deirdre. Excuse me, I should know better,
she's more important! And You're more important. I'll turn invisible
now and again---whenever you wish---just say the word.
Wait a minute!
Bruce
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